Friday, September 16, 2011

Thank you dear Lord

My mother-in-law moved away about 6 months ago. She had been living with my husband and I for nearly 2 years. Some things that I would rather not mention happened, and she moved to Arkansas with her brother and his family. She was ill when she left and got the medical care she needed in Arkansas thank God. Divine intervention is what it was..she was really sick. She was on oxygen 24/7 and had very high blood sugar, atrial fib., congestive heart failure, etc. Well, she received a pace maker, has lost a lot of weight, is off of oxygen completely, has her blood sugar in check, is taking better care of herself, and is doing much better. Anyway, she wanted to come back home, and there was no way that mine and my husbands Jeep would make it to go get her, so she took a train. We had to go pick her up from the train station Monday night which is about 45 minutes away. I had nearly 2 days of A.A. (anticipation anxiety). I was scared beyond belief because traveling anywhere is very hard for someone who suffers from anxiety disorder, and agoraphobia. My safe places are my home, my parents home, and my grandmothers home. Traveling sucks, but especially at night for me for some reason. Anyway, we had to go get her, so I prayed, cried and pouted. Well, I am thankful to God to say that I did it with absolutely NO anxiety!! Woooo hooo. So thankful. I just distracted myself with my cell phone and good music. That was an excellent exposure and I hope to get more of this type of exposure soon. One of these days I hope to be able to drive again..then go from there. I go back to the Dr. next Tuesday, so she can hopefully set me up with a good counselor and psychiatrist. I am beyond ready to be well.

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